speaks my mood

One last glance in a taxi cab
Images scar my mind
Four weeks felt like years
Since your full attention was all mine
The night was young and so were we
Talked about life, God, death, and your family
Did not want any promises,
Just my undivided honesty, and you said

Oh, things are going to change now for the better
Oh, things are going to change

I am the patron saint of lost causes
A fraction of who I once believed (change)
It's only a matter of time
Opinions I would try and rewrite
If life had background music playing your song
I have got to be honest, I tried to escape you
But the orchestra plays on, and they sang

Oh, things are going to change now for the better
And oh, things are going to change


Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you
Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through
Dismantle me down (repair)
You dismantle me
You dismantle me

Give me time to prove
Prove I want the rest of yours (prelude)
Call this a prelude to a lifetime of you
It's not that I hang on every word
I hang myself on what you repeat
It's not that I keep hanging on
I'm never letting go


Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you
Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through
Dismantle me down (repair)
You dismantle me
You dismantle me
Save me from myself
Save me from myself
Help me save me from myself
Save me from myself

Oh, things are going to change now for the better
And oh, things are going to change

Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you
Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through
Dismantle me down (repair)
You dismantle me
You dismantle me

welcome back

this is like a sick cycle
why do I have to miss you?

that's all I know to say at this point

let my heart be one with yours

I thought it was school or friends that was stressing me out, but Ive realized it's my dad bitching about my grades.This whole year, I have gotten all A's and B's and now I just have one C in AP world and he's going phsyco. I don't even know what to do. I can't stand going to my dads house because all he does is yell at me and it really doesnt help at all.

I've also realized the only thing I look forward to are the weekends. I'm so sick of this, I'm going back to the way I used to be. I need this back in my life again. I need you to help me again. and that is really devastating.

I don't know, I'm trying my best, but I guess my best isnt good enough.
My life is far from perfect. for anyone who'd like to think otherwise.

how

how do i write a poem to you
describing how much i miss
the times that were careless
we were careless

how do i write a letter to you
telling you how bad i'm empty
how this sinking feeling gets deeper
everyday, and everyday

how do i tell you
that this is the wrong path ive
chosen and i'm so very sorry
regret builds up, and
i'm lost once again

oh my gosh!

you are the key to why my life was so negative. please don't come back yet, I am finally my happy self without you.

moving on

hahaha not my beer, but my sister went crazy with my camera!

it doesnt feel as good as i though it would.. it feels even better!

btw, my birthdays in 3 days! last night i went to a japanese resturant for my birthday dinner.

SO GOOD!

i also took some pictures~

these are some of them!

dashboard

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home

I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again
There's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."

Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere with anyone
Making out.

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending.

I am alone
In my defeat
I wish I knew you were safely at home
I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have speak, and
This bottle of beast is taking me home.

Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.